so long, cancer
let me start by saying - i am cancer free!!!! after months and months of treatments, tests, blood work and stress i can FINALLY say that i no longer have cancer. words could never truly describe how happy and relieved i feel knowing that it is behind me. i am overwhelmed with so many different emotions… i feel like i have been given a second chance and i do not want to take that for granted. a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders [and my mind]. later that afternoon adriana & i were driving to visit my grandparents and singing the lyrics to ‘fight song’ with her was a memory i will never forget. her little voice and head bob to the beat…. "this is my fight song, take back my life song… prove i’m alright song. my power’s turned on, starting right now i’ll be strong. i’ll play my fight song and i don’t really care if nobody else believes… i’ve still got a lot of fight left in me.”
cancer taught me a lot of things. a lot about myself, about the people around me and about life in general. i have said the phrase “life is short” so many times throughout my life… but it wasn’t until i was faced with a life threatening disease that i realized just how true those words were. cancer changed everything. my focus shifted. it caused me to evaluate the path i was on, the people i surround myself with and who i am as a person. it made me realize how quickly things can change. how fast it could all be over. i used to let so many things bother me! i would stress over little things that i thought were important but am now realizing that is no way to live. i am learning to relax a little bit and enjoy life more. there will always be debt or something else to worry about… but i try to find the good in every day as much as i can. i am also much more selective on who i surround myself with. i am grateful for my family and friends, i wouldn’t have been able to get through it all without them.
my husband and i celebrated the news with a little overnight trip to philadelphia! it was a lot of fun and much needed. we went to the museum of the american revolution which was pretty cool and then ate a lot of food and toasted to being cancer free as much as we possibly could! we had the. best. thai food at xiandu thai !!! i am still dreaming of the pad thai i ordered… soooo good. we tried the love for brunch, it did not disappoint. we also met my sister and her bf for a couple drinks which was a fun surprise. it was a really, really fun weekend and i can’t thank my danny enough for everything!! he even ubered with me… multiple times… his least favorite thing to do! it must be love.
so, what’s next? i will have a scan every 4 months for the next handful of years to make sure there is no “activity”. my doctor is confident that i will not have a relapse, but it’s important to track what your body is doing post chemotherapy/radiation. otherwise i am feeling great! most side effects have subsided, my levels were all exactly where they should be. my scan was clear. my hair is starting to grow back. life is good!
i am so thankful for the care at penn medicine. my doctors, the nurses, the attention to detail… i couldn’t be happier and am so happy i made the choice to have my treatments done there.
goodbye cancer! i will not miss you!!!!
i do still plan to use this blog for life happenings - thank you for following along with my journey!! I do believe that the best is still to come. xo