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welcome to my little space of the internet, i'm so happy you're here. i truly am taking life day by day and look forward to sharing all of life's crazy experiences with you!  

adios to my hair and chemo #2

adios to my hair and chemo #2

this blog post is way overdue!!!  our family was vacationing at the beach for the week which was amazing !!! so i am a little behind.  let's get right into it because i have a lot to say! 

let me start by discussing my hair.  with my blend of chemo drugs, losing my hair was inevitable.  i had started to accept this fate but still had major anxiety about it.  apparently somewhere around the 3rd treatment it would really start to thin.  after talking with my doctor and reading about the experiences that other people had, i decided to take preemptive measures and "lose my hair" on my own terms.  the salon that i go to is awesome, let me start by saying that.   the owner is also the founder of a charity called wigs and wishes which donates wigs to women and children battling cancer.  i have known this for a long time and have witnessed so many people of all ages getting their heads buzzed and wigs placed over the years while i sat in the waiting area... never did i think i would be in that chair one day.  but my day came and with the help of my babe bonnie (who has done my hair since i was in 8th grade!!!! so almost 20 years... i'm old) and dawn who is a volunteer with the foundation and also a major sweetheart, my hair was shaved off and the most gorgeous wig was placed and styled exactly the way my normal hair used to be.  i wish i would have actually taken pictures of the process... but between the emotional nature of what was happening and just overall wanting to get it over with... no photos were taken until after. 

getting used to the wig has been a slight adjustment... but let me tell you, after spending a week at the beach and being able to sit on the deck in the salty, humid air and still have perfectly straight hair was pretty fantastic!!!! dan's mom bought this adorable headband for me that has become my daily go to look... it makes me look a little bit like a hippy, but i kind of dig it!  so i went and purchased a bunch more to have for pretty much all outfits!  the company is natural life and i am obsessed with pretty much everything they sell.  as if i needed a new company to become addicted to... #sendhelp

a couple of days before i got my hair buzzed, the guys in my life did the same.  i found it to be super sweet and comforting at the same time.  dan goes to a place called the shop and his barber, george really did a great job with them!  it feels really nice to be so loved and supported, thank you guys!!! 

now on to chemo session #2!  i was dreading this day... i was finally feeling like myself again after a week or so of side effects and being tired.... just in time to go back and start feeling crappy again, yay! .... but! much to my surprise i didn't have any of the side effects that i experienced the first time around!  it was weird in a way, but so, so nice.  i'm sure relaxing on the beach played a big role in how i felt.... although i would like to believe that if you're feeling sick, you'll feel sick pretty much anywhere that you are.  so maybe i just got lucky this time?  i took all of these preventative measures like getting the prescription for "magic mouthwash" which is supposed to be amazing with mouth sores and the feeling of them... didn't use it.  all the anti-nausea medications were packed that i still haven't opened... i even had my normal appetite!!! say what?! 

of course with all of this positive news, there was also one negative... my white blood cell count was low the day of my treatment... apparently it is supposed to be somewhere between 4-10 and mine was at a 2.  this means my immune system is pretty much crap and i am at a higher risk to catch a sickness... so lovely.  since my body will continue to get weaker from the treatments, my doctor prescribed neupogen injections that i had to take 3 times after my treatment.  this was not pleasant.  danny had to administer the shots and he did a good job all things considered.  the shots help the bone marrow produce more white blood cells so they are super important and necessary.  but i hate needles and shots so i was feeling very babyish. 

i am hopeful that my 3rd chemo session will be as smooth as my first... i am feeling great and doing as much as i can to keep my body healthy and combat the negative side of chemotherapy. 

oh, the lump on my neck is gone!  when they did the biopsy they took out half of it... and now after 2 sessions the other half is also gone and that little bit of info keeps me going!  hopefully the same can be said for the mass in my chest... but i'll know more about that later. 

thank you for reading and for all of your love and support!!  xo

 

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